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[12 Jul 2006|10:55pm] |
nose pierced.
summer school almost half done.
love new place, miss old ones.
home in 6 weeks.
new york in 7 weeks.
my mind is in ten thousand places.
edit:/
i have a new roommate starting in september. she is white and speaks english.
for those of you who don't understand why this is a phenomenon,
i'll tell you that everyone in washington is asian.
and my current roommate doesn't speak a lick of english.
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[18 Jun 2006|02:46pm] |
in an effort to pretend i'm not so lonely,
i spent way too much money.
i think it is a horrible idea that i live next to anthropologie, apple, barnes and noble, sephora...
visit me.
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[07 May 2006|10:55pm] |
unbelievable excitement to ridiculous pain.
and i don't know if i'm ok.
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[25 Apr 2006|02:23pm] |
i've never been someone who cares about what other people think,
but i also never realized how much i am disliked.
i really should have stayed in new york.
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[07 Apr 2006|01:06am] |
i was trying to explain falafel to people at work.
and now i can't help but NEED mamoun's. stat.
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[25 Mar 2006|10:42pm] |
people are such fucking liars.
i hate my job.
i need to move out.
i need money.
and most of all, i need a stiff drink.
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[17 Feb 2006|04:07pm] |
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i am so ridiculously unhappy i could vomit.
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[22 Jan 2006|11:22pm] |
and so begins my last week in new york.
at least both my teams are in the superbowl (sorry, linds).
so much to do, so little motivation.
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[29 Dec 2005|09:52pm] |
i have been surgered and have a hole in my stomach.
i feel like hell.
seattle in 6 days.
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[15 Dec 2005|11:38pm] |
transit strike study sleepover update:
not productive.
very tired.
i know as much biology as when i started.
32oz of raspberry iced tea snapple.
cookie party pending at 1am with med and lindsey.
t-minus 8.5 hours until my final.
strawberry cheesecake ice cream in freezer.
incoherency.
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[10 Dec 2005|06:09pm] |
13 days until i get to come home.
whoever at nyu decided to have finals until the 23rd every year is an asshole. and the chemistry department is also an asshole for somehow agreeing to be scheduled for that day every year.
i just want to go home.
because finals pretty much make me want to vomit.
so far: 1 orgo exam down, 1 spanish presentation, 1 biology + lab final, 1 politics final, 1 orgo lab final, and 1 orgo final to go. plus 3 more days of class.
also, i wish i understood why my roommate can't follow simple directions, like turn off your heater during the day so that my apartment doesn't burn down.
blah sums up my mood as of right now. i'm not even unhappy, i'm just indifferent. somehow that may be worse.
finally, please hang out with me when i'm in phoenix even though you might have to drive out to gilbert (it's scenic and doesn't smell so much like cow anymore and is pretty much all highway, i promise). i'm always lonely in new york, so it would be nice to come home to love.
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[04 Dec 2005|06:20pm] |
i could be really stressed out right now.
i have a spanish test tomorrow, and then a chemistry test on friday, and then a spanish presentation on monday and then finals starting on friday. my orgo lab unknown project is due on tuesday as well. but in all honesty i am not stressing. no i do not know anything about the chapters i need to know for my chemistry test, but i will figure it out.
i am studying for my spanish test, listening to david bowie, and making granola (which i have perfected now) and my roommate is gone and i am kind of content with it all. if i weren't horribly dizzy to the point of actually almost passing out, everything would be wonderful.
and eventhough things with boy have kind of developed into a weird mess because i couldn't leave well enough alone and i had to say what i was feeling, i guess i don't mind that either because things will turn out however they are supposed to turn out.
i have finished and submitted my ucsd application, 12 minutes before the deadline and using a combination of my washington essay and essays from ucsd application from high school. i think i am finally happy with my washington essay and will probably submit that soon. and i have a good feeling that i will get accepted. why? because i am smart and a good writer and nyu probably looks better than a community college.
i am sort of worried about my biology final, and yet i am not. why? because i can blame any poor grade that i receive on the ga strike. it is the dumbest and most inconvenient thing to grace the earth since, i don't know but something really inconvenient, but it probably is beneficial to all of the slackers at nyu. a lot of classes have been cancelled anyway. oh the politics of nyu.
i ran out of paper for my computer.
i have been singing a lot of fiona apple as of late.
it snowed late last night/this morning and it is pretty. and officially winter weather i think. although over thanksgiving it snowed and then was 60 degrees again. i kind of like the 60 better. also because my heat is kind of on the fritz becuase i don't know how to work a thermostat.
roommate is gone in a few weeks. for good.
oh life in college alone.
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[27 Nov 2005|11:29pm] |
after over a week without my dearest ipod,
and a few tears shed over difficulties installing the NEW ipod apple had to give me,
ipod is back in business,
and i couldn't be happier about it.
in other news:
only 11 more days of actual class left, so maybe i'll go.
2 more exams and a presentation, then finals. gag me.
26 days until home!
then surgery, seattle, and one more semester and i'm home free and hopefully in seattle.
i'm surprisingly cheery. possibly because i am no longer moving from house to house of family members and constantly having to hug or kiss a relative. i remember why i like living in arizona.
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[06 Nov 2005|06:41pm] |
i officially no longer feel obliged to participate in unrequited kindness.
fuck anyone that has taken advantage of my big heart,
but trust me, it won't happen again.
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[29 Oct 2005|11:37pm] |
i didn't really think my conversation with anthony bothered me...
until about 10 shots later.
and i realize that it is really probably more true than i would like to believe.
i also realize how important it is for me to leave and have a fresh start.
i have spent 7 years of my life being put down by the same man,
always having one flaw or another pointed out to me.
he thought that it would make me want to be better, to change those things about myself.
but really, it just made me aware of the things that i really can't change.
i need a change of pace.
and i keep dwelling on this fact, and i'm sitting with my washington application essay trying to make it compelling and intellectual and persuasive and yet still me, and i can't make it that way.
i want to get out so bad, but i can't seem to come through in my writing. i have never been able to sell myself, and now is a time when it is so important to my well being to do so, and i still don't have the words.
they ask for a compelling reason for their university to accept you...is pulling a once really happy girl out of a very dark hole a good one?
because to me, i just sounds desperate.
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[27 Oct 2005|11:57pm] |
officially:
having surgery after christmas.
going to to visit seattle, boy in january.
ridiculously smitten with boy, seattle.
not doing well in school, but internally motivated to fix it.
too damn cold in new york.
ready to come home again. (ps. you better come visit me in my post-surgical bed)
real excited for harry potter.
calmed down from last week's breakdown.
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